Motherhood

Mom and Maya - 6 months

We celebrated Maya’s “1/2” birthday on Saturday, August 8.  She turned 6 months.  It’s hard to believe how fast the time has flown.  During the challenging moments, it seemed like time was going mind-numbingly slow.  It seemed at one point that I would be nursing her for 8-12 times a day forever.  Life seemed to be slipping away as I seemed to become a feeding machine along with a diaper-changing machine.

I’m feeling less and less like a machine every day and Maya is becoming minutely less demanding every day.  She is becoming a “person.”  It’s wonderful to see her develop in different ways every day and becoming more aware of the world around her.  It’s great to see the world through her eyes – how fascinating certain things are that I wouldn’t look at twice.  A child encourages one to “smell the roses” along the way.

At times, it feels that motherhood keeps me from being the person I want to be in other ways, such as a succesful entrepreneur.  At the same time, motherhood provides perspective and reminds me of what I will be truly grateful for and remember in the end.  There are moments I want to remember and treasure forever, rather than have them be a blur because I was too busy trying to reach my goals.

Maya - 6 months