Squirrel Hill

 Grief, Loss, Musing on Death  Comments Off on Squirrel Hill
Nov 022018
 

Last Saturday morning, on October 27, 2018, I shockingly read an email of a breaking tragedy unfolding at the Tree of Life. Some recessed part of my brain recognized the name. It was immediately familiar. Reading further, my memory was confirmed when it was mentioned that it was in Squirrel Hill, my former home during college. Then I looked up the building and it was very familiar visually, from thirty years ago, having gone by it numerous times for four years while living less than a mile away in the neighborhood.

Hey Perfection,

 Finding Meaning  Comments Off on Hey Perfection,
Jan 172018
 

Hey Perfection, this week, I’m going to touch my neglected guitar and piano.  I might even mess with them and make terrible sounds with them.  You can’t stop me. I won’t know what I’m doing.  Although knowing that feels terrifying at some level and doing things poorly seems criminal, I might just go ahead and […]

Farewell, My Friend Leo

 Finding Meaning, Loss, Outlook, Relationships  Comments Off on Farewell, My Friend Leo
Nov 032017
 

I’ve been stunned since yesterday, seeing the message associated with a LinkedIn invite. I had been ignoring the invite from the woman for possibly weeks, thinking it was another work-related association I would get to later. But then yesterday, I inadvertently saw the message on the invite that I didn’t know was there, with her stating she was your wife and that you had passed. My heart stopped, as I immediately accepted the invite and responded back to her, beginning with “oh my God..”

Underminers

 Abuse, Finding Meaning, Narcissism  Comments Off on Underminers
Apr 242017
 

Underminers are the “Debbie Downers” of the world. Debbie Downer is a popular character from Saturday Night Live who always had something negative to say and found some ways to rain on everyone’s parades about everything. Debbie Downers are the party poopers of the world. Felt good about something and then you shared it with Debbie? Well now you feel stupid and terrible about it.

Faith over Fear

 Finding balance, Finding Meaning, Spirituality  Comments Off on Faith over Fear
Dec 102016
 

I apologize for having so often forgotten you. I became acquainted with and at times overtaken by Fear. I see now that you have been the greater faithful friend, the one who can guide me to peace. You deserved more loyalty from me. Fear hasn’t taken me to any place I can find happiness in.