Parenting Entails Regularly Letting Go

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Sep 092009
 

My 11 year-old pre-teen son is on his way to go on a 3-day outdoor education program for middle school.  It will be his first time being away without a parent.  It is reassuring to know he will be surrounded by classmates and teachers he knows.  As he started middle school just a few weeks ago, I could see a transformation starting with him, one that included the excitement and wonder about the world around him and embracing the process of growing.

Colin at sailing camp 8.09

Colin at sailing camp 8.09

I recall my own junior high school trip when we went to Charleston.  It was my first time going away without my parents and I felt very liberated.  I have vivid images of Charleston and how beautiful I thought it was.  This was before Hurricane Hugo.

Colin has stated at times that he wanted to stay a child (like Peter Pan) or at least prolong his childhood.  I must have not made being an adult look too appealing!  I admit at times my tough love would have made him seem to be an adult-in-training.   I’ve had a clear idea of the well-mannered gentleman I want him to be at 30 and have worked backwards to fill in all the pieces to try to have that end result.  I felt it was working when his kindergarten teacher told me he was the most well-mannered (and reasoning-oriented) student she had.

Of course there is much that Colin has and continues to teach me.  A big lesson has been that of letting go, which seems to be required daily as our kids continually change, grow and need us less.  I vividly recall sitting in a movie theatre with him when he was about 3, watching Nemo.  I cried when the boy fish got separated from his parent and kept swimming away.  The situation was probably not helped by the fact that a divorce was going on and there had been actual moments like that.

It is an irony that the better we do as parents, the less our children will need us.  We have to pat ourselves on the back when they independently and confidently embrace the world without us.

Location Affects Life With Baby

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Aug 272009
 

Life is different depending on where you live when staying home with the baby.  In the suburbs of the US, it can be isolating and mind-numbing.  It’s so quiet, you can hear crickets outside.  Whereas, in India, there is always activity and other stay-at-home moms as neighbors that you can see outside, along with the kids.  Quiet is not a word one would use for most areas of India.

As with anything, life with baby at home is a question of perspective.  Whereas it could be tedious; it is also a break from the rat race.  Having been in the traditional work world a while, I don’t glorify it.  At 30, after having my son, I was more anxious to get out and work, even though I could have stayed home longer.  Post-baby life was somewhat of a shock, which it isn’t so much after having my daughter at 40.

I now recognize that I have to actively seek out and build the social life I desire.  This is fine to me.  I didn’t necessarily appreciate my limited social prospects in traditional work environments.  I can join the groups I feel connected to and connect only with the individuals that interest me.

Still, I bet there are many differences in life with baby even in the US and where one lives in a city – whether in an urban environment or the suburbs.  It would be nice to live in an area where one can enjoy a nice yard and get out and see activity and people.  Maybe by this time next year, this vision can be a reality.

Motherhood

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Aug 152009
 



Moherhood - 6 months

Mom and Maya - 6 months

We celebrated Maya’s “1/2” birthday on Saturday, August 8.  She turned 6 months.  It’s hard to believe how fast the time has flown.  During the challenging moments, it seemed like time was going mind-numbingly slow.  It seemed at one point that I would be nursing her for 8-12 times a day forever.  Life seemed to be slipping away as I seemed to become a feeding machine along with a diaper-changing machine.

I’m feeling less and less like a machine every day and Maya is becoming minutely less demanding every day.  She is becoming a “person.”  It’s wonderful to see her develop in different ways every day and becoming more aware of the world around her.  It’s great to see the world through her eyes – how fascinating certain things are that I wouldn’t look at twice.  A child encourages one to “smell the roses” along the way.

At times, it feels that motherhood keeps me from being the person I want to be in other ways, such as a succesful entrepreneur.  At the same time, motherhood provides perspective and reminds me of what I will be truly grateful for and remember in the end.  There are moments I want to remember and treasure forever, rather than have them be a blur because I was too busy trying to reach my goals.

Maya - 6 months

Maya - 6 months